Paranormal can't be explained by conventional means and that
means it can't be explained by acceptable means. It's well past time to enlarge
what acceptable means can mean.
But that's an argument for later and for better qualified
folk to answer. All I've got right now is me and so that's all I can talk
about.
Here's some of my other stuff.
There was this one day in the eighties. I'm in my early 20s
living in a high-rise apartment. I've got a job, search clerk in a government
office. This is where liens and chattels are registered as well as limited
companies. It's boring, but it's work. I'm really a journalist, you see, but
the one reporting job I had I hated. It was in the buckle town of the province
Bible belt. I lasted less than four months. It didn't help that I didn't have a
driver's license.
It made for a dull life. I paid my bills, read, dreamt of
being a writer and often wondered what to do with my life. Usual 20s stuff, but
with a feeling of inertia.
Then one day in the shower I had this feeling. It came from
nowhere. I hadn't been thinking of my future and probably not thinking much
more than why did the three step hair shampoo I used had bottles for steps one
and three but a small squeeze tube for step two.
The feeling washed over me like the shower was doing, only this
feeling came from inside: Everything was going to be all right in my thirties.
And I smiled inside. I wasn't a smiler then. I barely knew how to do it, but my
mind grinned ear to ear.
The feeling didn't last very long, but the memory never left
me. It didn't stay topmost in my mind, but I'd think of it from time to time.
But at no point did I ever sit down to figure out how that was going to happen.
Instead I went to work until one day I went travelling with
a new friend to Europe. Then I came home after a few months and decided to get
back to journalism. I sent out resume after resume to every newpaper in the
province I could find and wound up in the south end of the centre. I covered
just about everything but sports and loved it. Oh, and I had my driver's
license by this time. A few things happened here. In one, on the way back from
the interview for that job one sunny Saturday in July as the canola bloomed and
waved hot gold against the deep blue sky I saw a unicorn.
I can't prove it, but I know it happened. I was driving up the
highway on the way back and out the corner of my eye a large white horse in a
field stood out. Or rather, its single dynamic horn jutting skyward caught my
eye. My parents were with me. I'd never driven on the big freeway before and
only had my license a few months. I wanted the company and they wanted the
scenic drive. It all worked out.
Anyway, I didn't mention the unicorn. I kind of regret that.
My parents were pretty cool that way. Mom was a bit on the psychic side and
read Fate Magazine. Dad always wanted to see aliens and go for a ride. In
retrospect, that should have been an indicator.
The there was court. I loved covering Provincial Court.. One
learns a great deal and it's passive newsgathering at its best. Anyone, one
day a new Crown Prosecutor showed up to handle the day's files. She looked 32.
I don't know where I got that, but it struck me as probably her age. She seemed
to have it all together. I have no idea if she did or didn't, but she handled
herself in the courtroom and certainly gave the appearance of having it
together.
So I decided that 32 was going to be the best age for me,
and then I remembered again about how things were going got be okay in my
thirties.
I worked there 33 months and took another
trip to Europe. That's for later. For this, I took the trip, came home to my
parent's house, read the Bible cover to cover, and then decided to get
another reporting job.
That one took me to Ft. St.John B.C.
I spent six months there at a daily newspaper. That was fine,
but I didn't feel right there. It wasn't for me.
Quit that mess after six months, hung around at my parents
house and then realized I'd better get another job. That's how I ended up in
the job I stayed at and the town I live in and found the man I married.
By the time I was 32 I was living with my going to be
someday husband, had a job I liked in a town I liked and everything felt pretty
good.
One night I had one of those dreams. You know, the kind that
really aren't dreams at all but you don't quite know the right word so you go
with dream and hope for the best.
I was alone, fiancé was away working, it was during the dead
hours of the night when I visited me. The me of the 80s high-rise apartment
hesitated as she walked into the bedroom. I sat up in bed and made myself as
open to younger me as I could. Young me was so shy, withdrawn, hesitant. Then
me remembered those feelings so well.
We talked. I have forgotten about what. I remember the red
pants and red and white striped shirt younger me wore to the visit. Younger me
even had makeup on.
Then me made some comforting reassuring noises to younger me
and said everything would be all right as the visit ended. Then me stretched
out her arms for a hug that younger me was reluctant to accept. I wasn't a
hugger then. I wanted to be, but I didn't know how to do it. Then me understood
and hugged younger me while younger me accepted it but did not respond, her
arms lifeless at her side.
She left, and then me fell back to sleep immediately,
knowing after all these years I'd seen the other side of the story.
8 comments:
Time to write a book!!!
I love this, Leah! It's quite fascinating.
I suspect that I would also be a little uncomfy if older me were to reach out to hug younger me if younger me was in the shower.
I do love this. Thanks for sharing it with us. <3
Maybe if I paid more attention to the details of my life, I would find interesting and odd things. I usually am too introspective to take it all in.
Thanks, all. It's difficult to put stuff like this out for a public airing. It's gratifying to have it received so well.
What a fascinating experience, and then to get to see a unicorn as well.
It sure was, Messymimi. I keep hoping to see another unicorn.
My only then-me now-me experience was in high school, getting dressed to go to a play, I think, in a dress I loved and wore for years: black velvet with lace collar and cuffs and a lace panel down the front. Behind me in the mirror I saw an old woman wearing the same dress, and knew it was me. She smiled at me, and I knew what I'll look like in my eighties. We'll have to wait a while to find out if I experience the other end.
Mary Anne in Kentucky
Fascinating, Mary Anne. Thanks for sharing.
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