Monday, January 16, 2017

Gratitude Monday - Wake Up To What? Edition

I had another spirit wake up call early Sunday morning. I am grateful for it, and for all the others I've had.
They'd slacked off for a time and when they came back they were rare and quite weak sounding.
If you're just tuning in or need a refresher I refer to being roused out of a sound sleep to the ringing of a telephone.
It only rings once and as soon as I am awake I realize the ringing is only in my head.
They've been back for a while now and I have written about them in the past.
Sunday's call came at 01:29 shortly after my husband left for his night shift to check the local highways.
It was loud. It was insistent. It was a single ring inside my head.
I am happy I get these. I've experienced them since late 1989 or so though the early ones were the door buzzer for my apartment. I've awakened to many spiritual things over the years from meditation to past life regression,to clearing and cleansing energy, you get the idea.
Of course there's more to learn and experience. I am sure there are many things I have yet to hear of and even more I may never hear of. There's something ahead for me. I look forward to it. But I wonder what I am waking up to?



Monday, January 9, 2017

Gratitude Monday - The Flour Downstairs Edition

Today I am grateful the flour downstairs is still good.
It's been a bit of a glutenfest around here lately. I craved proper toast the other day and rather than go out to a restaurant, get an order of toast and coffee, and be done with it I decided to bake bread.
Rice toast is fine, but at the end of the chew it gets a weird consistency like one is chewing cooked sugar. Essentially, one is.
Further, I'd had a nagging thought to eat a bit of gluten again and that's what really put it over the net. Five years ago I had a nagging thought to stop eating gluten, "for a week" as an experiment. It's been great, and it is not over, but it was time for a wee change.
I dug out the spelt I had in the cupboard, sniffed and sorted through it to make sure it was okay, and then fired up the bread machine.
I am so grateful for toast and coffee that I made myself. It was the best.
Then I decided to try making bagels with the rye and barley flours we had in the cupboard.
Yesterday I decided to try making pretzels. That meant a trip downstairs to the stash in the big tote.
Not only was it in fine form it does not require sifting. The stuff we had upstairs did.
I am grateful for that.
There are several large (ice cream sized) pails of it and that's wonderful because I have an urge to make tortillas and buns, and maybe more bread, and anything else that comes to mind.
It's fun. And I realized as I was rolling out the dough in ropes to make pretzels it is not the eating, it is the procedure that I am enjoying so much.
For that, I am grateful.

The pretzels:

are very tasty. 

Monday, January 2, 2017

Gratitude Monday - New Year Edition

It's another new year with no mistakes* in it yet and for it I am grateful.
I can do so much this year.  I make no promises that I will, but I can so I might.
Possibilities include, but are not restricted to,  I can continue to grow and change and improve. I can approach people openly with love in my heart. I can think before I speak, hold my tongue, or better yet, not hold my tongue.
Too much that should be said is left unsaid out of fear of hurting others.
What a load of crap.
Not that I advocate being malicious, I merely mean if a thing is bothering you, then get it out and get it taken care of. Keeping it inside eats away at our emotional innards and we end up living a lie.
This serves no none, least of all ourselves.
In that vein if you love someone, say so.
If you want someone to fuck off, say so.
Both are equally important, and ultimately, those who hear it will be grateful.
Have a great 2017. I know I'm going to.
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* Paraphrase of Anne Shirley, Anne of Green Gables, by L. M. Montgomery

Monday, December 26, 2016

Gratitude Monday - The Christmas Asparagus Edition

We had Christmas Dinner last night with Mike's mom and sister. That alone is something for which to be grateful and I am.
But among the foods on offer was my MIL's pickled asparagus. I don't recall ever having tried pickled asparagus anywhere and I've always been curious.
My goodness it's good.
This was her own asparagus grown in her garden and picked and pickled at its peak.
I liked it so much that she gave us the jar to take home.
I have pickled asparagus in my refrigerator, and for it I am grateful.

Monday, December 19, 2016

Gratitude Monday - Turned Me Loose Edition, A Cancer, My Ass! Post

Last Thursday I saw my cancer surgeon for the last time.
It wasn't going to be the final visit as I still have two more Carcinoembryonic Antigen (CEA) tests coming up, but he said he didn't need to see me any more.
I'm that healthy, and I am grateful.
All the tests, last year's colonsocopy, the CT scan in late August, all the CEAs done every three months, have all been good.
The CEAs are to go on for three years. I don't hit that mark until next July.
I'll still get the last two tests. It's matter of going up to the hospital and getting a bit of blood taken. The results will go to him as well as to my family doctor. He suggested I follow up with her, but admitted it wasn't really necessary.
If there are any problems his office will call me.
I do not expect to hear from him until my next colonsocopy in the summer of 2018.
Oh, and Cancer, My Ass!


Monday, December 12, 2016

Gratitude Monday - Let Them Love You Edition

It has happened during my daily meditation/self-hypnosis hybrid that I get messages. They flow into mind from whomever and serve me well. I am grateful for all of them.
The most recent message was, "Let them love you."
It took me a few minutes to figure out what this meant. I realized the intent is general, that is, let people be kind to you, accept their help when offered even for the simplest things such as holding the door for you.
Further, lose the need to keep matters even. If a person wished to extend kindness, then show them enough respect to let it happen without worrying you owe them something.
All you owe is the gracious acceptance of their kindness toward you.
I have kept this in mind and accepted kindness when offered.
It is a great lesson, and for it I am grateful.


Monday, December 5, 2016

Gratitude Monday - In Hot Water Edition

Today I am grateful for the simple pleasure of a hot bath.

They are wonderful all through the year, but in cold weather they are especially inviting. I can slip down into the tub and be surrounded by the welcoming heat. They make my feet feel warm.
They are relaxing. In them the cares and woes of the day surrender to the soothing water.
Also, I've had some good writing ideas and plot problem solutions come to me while in the tub and those are always welcome.

Several other things to be grateful for come along with the bath: hot water from a tap, a bathtub in a warm room, and time to enjoy the bath.

It is a simple thing. It gives back so much and for it I am grateful.