Thursday, May 30, 2019

Taking Stock

I am of extraterrestrial stock.
My parents were human. I'm human, but also alien as near as I can figure it. I've written about it here from time to time, but at no point have I actually said it. That stops today.
I've written about the clown in the barn and how it started as a being who visited me and drew it on the wall in grease pencil. That's how I remember it, and I have continuous conscious recollection of it. That said, it was for my eyes only as the reminder was for me alone. 
She used to visit me often and during those times I was no child. A full- grown adult consciousness took over as we spoke.
We talked of what I am to do here in this life. I don't know what that is, but I do know if I am not open about who and what I am, the heritage I share, then I may never know it.

Are you wondering what my parents would think of this?
My mom would be cool about it as she had some moderate psychic ability and read all the Edgar Cayce materials she could get her hands on. Past lives were her interest.
My dad always wanted to be abducted by aliens and taken for a ride. He was clear he wanted them to bring him back, but a quick trip around the cosmos was on his list.
I asked him once, "Aren't you scared?"
He replied, "What's to be scared of?"

Back to me. I am sure that full-grown adult consciousness is still in here somewhere. I wish it would come back out. I want to know what it knows. It is possible it is simply adult me that through some process of time and space and reality was available to me there.
I have no idea what is going to happen next. For now, it is important to get the matter out on the public record. I am of alien heritage and I look forward to what is next.


Virginia Lee said...

I wonder if this is why we're soulcousins?

I do not know if I am alien, but I certainly have felt out of place my entire life. Even when I was, in theory, at home, I've never felt that I was. I've longed for home always. I say things to myself and others along the lines of, "I have no idea why I'm here. How do I know when my assignment is finished and I can go home?" Or, "I'm so tired of this planet. What is the point of my being here still?"

I don't remember having specific conversations with aliens. I do have all sorts of adventures when I dream that seem to involve parallel Universes/alternate realities.

Perhaps we've just lost the knowledge of how to find the doorways to those other places? I believe they're still around, just hidden really well.

Tabor said...

While I am certainly of this earth (while made of stardust) I do not need another person or entity to confuse me even more about what my place is on this planet. Glad you are so calm about it.

juniper66 said...

I do believe we are all alien! How could we ever think that we would be the only lifeforms in this vast universe? My belief is that alien beings put us here as a test or experiment of what would happen on this great earth. I'm not the type of person who believes in one "almighty" but if the aliens did plant us here, then they can in all rights be considered a "god".

I get a lot of deja vu, I mean A LOT. It almost gets to the point where I'm not sure if I'm here or there if you know what I mean. I think deja vu could be considered as alternate realities maybe? Not sure if we will ever know.

What a boring life it would be if everything was standardized and nothing exciting ever happens or makes you think that science can't explain everything. I love my different experiences and would like to see a few more. :)

Leah J. Utas said...

VL: Maybe you're an alien, but in deeper cover than me. I used to want them to come and get me, but now I just want conscious contact so I can be sure I've stayed on track.

As for the doorways, I see everything as a possible portal that I can remember how to work.

Tabor, thanks.

juniper66, I totally get you on the deja vu. I hope you get more experiences and enjoy them all.

messymimi said...

My hope is you will remember someday. Perhaps there will be a specific point in time where you are supposed to remember that has yet to come.

Leah J. Utas said...

Thank you, Messymimi.